A thought, a poem, a release

Regret: a feeling of sorrow or remorse for a fault, act, loss, disappointment, etc

It’s 11:11 again

A time when I didn’t use to wish

For I had everything I needed

But now I have wishes

Too many it seems, then I could ever say

But still I wish them

Hoping that they will come true

Thinking “If only they did, I would be happy”

Looking back, to times when I was

And for a split second regretting them

For if they didn’t happen I wouldn’t be where I am now

But I don’t regret those times,

moments,

feelings,

For in them I grew

And while today it hurts

It hurts a bit less than yesterday

So maybe,

just maybe

One day I will wake up and the hurt will be gone

But not the memories

Those will always stay

And I never want them to go

For if I was happy then, they aren’t worth regretting

But still there are moments

“It would be easier” I say

And yes it would be, but life isn’t easy

And it is not on the mountains that we grow

but in the valley’s

where there is pain

and suffering

And I have learned so much

about the power of friendship

and families

how the people who care about you are always there

And while hurting is bad

Regretting is worse

So the former is inevitable

but I control the later

and I will

but I won’t stop wishing

for a better day

as I know it is coming